It’s about to be 2am. I’m walking around naked in my apartment.  I can’t sleep, even though I know I’ll need to wake up in a couple hours for what should be an important meeting… a lame formality which is probably a waste of my time. The light over the kitchen island is on… should be lights but I just turned around and noticed one is out. Regardless these energy efficient lights are so dim, largely unnoticeable during the day, but even the light of my screen overshadows… I can’t sleep because that calm warmth,… got lost… somewhere in one of my dreams… and since I won’t allow myself not to feel this, not to be temporally subdued by orgasm… I look at the facts without emotion and am still in awe by what happened..